If someone calls you self-aware, is that a compliment?
I mean, I know I’m self-aware (which probably goes without saying) but if someone else tells you that they can see that you are self-aware do they mean it as a good thing? Because to me it feels like they are saying, “Holy cow! You’re such a loser. Well at least you know you’re a loser. Good for you!”
Mind you, I don’t consider myself a loser. I love me. Honestly, no one loves me as much as I do – and I really love myself. But I know I’m a bit rough around the edges and people like to judge and I’m fine with all that – usually. So why did being told that I’m self-aware two days in a row by two different people stick with me the was it has?
I was also told today that maybe I should put some makeup on and do up my hair when I go to meet with employment agencies. I suppose I get where this (female) person was coming from but she was going in a direction that I don’t go. (It isn’t as if I were cloth sacks and flip flops when I leave the house.) So, yeah, not feeling as great about today as I did Tuesday. Which is okay. Every day won’t be a good one.
ALTHOUGH, I did get an email today from a company I’ve sent resumes to a couple of times this year wondering if I’m still looking for work – so the good evened out the bad. It’ll be even better if this goes beyond the email stage. Fingers crossed.
I guess if I have to learn a lesson today it’s to just keep being me. It’s corny and silly but it’s true and it’s worked well for me so far.